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Jan 14th

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My car is acting up real bad, so I’m having to hitch rides to work and school. It’s Friday the 13th, maybe it really does call for bad luck. I have to work late tonight, and I would really just like a hug to get me by today. Unfortunately I don’t think my co-workers can offer we a warm place in their arms tonight. Buh.

Jan 13th

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I don’t write on Tumblr anymore because I know if I do I’ll get questioned about it. I need to stop internalizing everything. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t even admit out loud some of the things I’m thinking. I can’t write the words down, even if my eyes are the only ones to see them. I just push them down deeper into my brain in hopes that they’ll...

Jan 4th

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Is it terrible that nearly every relationship related story on tumblr I see, I scoff at and immediately stamp a death date on this anonymous “ohsoinlove” blogger’s relationship? I’m way too horribly critical of love.

Dec 27th

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Dec 24th

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Dec 24th

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This is the sound of desperation This is the sound of me wearing thiiiiin I put an old Hawthorne Heights album I got for Christmas my Freshman Year in my stereo today. It made me think of my red Zune and MySpace and pictures with lyric captions and sadness and unrequited love. Time has passed.

Dec 17th

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I would just really like a joint. Or a drink. Not too much to ask, right?

Dec 16th

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It’s awkward when you’re on tumblr at school and porn pops up on your dash.

Dec 15th

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If Your Tumblr has more reblogs than original...

Dec 6th

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If I unfocus my eyes and move them around just a bit I can see all these translucent specks that move either up or down at a quick pace. I completely convinced myself that they are the souls of people coming and leaving the Earth. It’s possible, right?

Dec 2nd

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Dec 2nd

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Dec 2nd

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Nov 28th

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Nov 3rd

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Oct 31st

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Oct 25th

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We only have one life to live. Or if you believe in reincarnation, we have multiple lives to live. But even at that, we only get one chance to live with the circumstances we’ve been placed in. In our next life we could be handicapped or be a poor ant with a short life span and not near all the capabilities that we have as a human. Every second should count, because it could be gone today, or...

Oct 20th

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Sep 26th

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I am sixteen. I'm afraid that I am pregnant. I've...

Um. You can’t get pregnant from making out. That “something” was semen, and if the P was not in the V, you are not pregnant. I thought health class was a requirement?

Aug 17th

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Kait Payne.: My favorite quotes: →

kaitmpayne: “Unbeing dead isn’t being alive.” - e.e.cummings But then she said something I thought was wise. She said she had married a guy, and he was just a guy. He wasn’t going to make all her problems go away, because he was just a guy. And that freed her to really love him as a guy, not an ultimate…

Aug 16th

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Aug 9th

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Phone rings..

Me: Hello? Ben: HELLO my sweet porcelain angel!

Aug 6th

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Aug 2nd

“So I think it’s pretty sad that I can’t be without you for like five...”

– A voicemail Ben left me after he left my house one night. I just stumbled across it and thought it was sweet.

Aug 1st

Jul 30th

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Jul 29th

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Tonight my mom and I went to The Peppermill where Ben works and ate supper. We ran into his oldest brother and his wife, as well as the love of my life, Ben’s little nephew Charlie. They ended up sitting at our table with us and it was sooo nice chatting with them and getting to hangout with Charlie. I just adore him! Here’s him showing me how to wink :)

Jul 28th

Jul 27th

I think I figured out why I haven't written in...

I’ve become scared of my own mind. It’s less dangerous to just think on the surface.

Jul 26th

Anonymous asked: So I've been following your blog for about five months now and I just want to let you know that you are a GREAT photographer and your writings are inspiring and you just seem like an amazing person (I say seem because "I don't know you") but anyways sorry for being an anon haha :D

Jul 25th

Jul 24th

When Ben calls me drunk

…and then forgets he called me a few minutes later …and says he loves me, then asks if he says it too much …and tells me I need to go to sleep a million times …and pees outside the toilet Hahaha this will be funny in the morning.

Jul 11th

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Jul 8th

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You’ve presumably fallen asleep, and I’m sitting here at my computer with my chin on my hand staring at the bright screen. All the lights in my room are off, except for the soft glow of the television combined with light from my laptop. I never stay up this late, but oddly enough sleep hasn’t even come close to calling my name yet. You said you wanted me to post more on here;...

Jul 8th

grizzlymays asked: I know! People hittin' me up and liking my stuff and reblogging me. SO MUCH TUMBLR LOVE.

Good :D I am done with relationships for awhile. I'm starting to wear myself out. I just got out of one a few days ago actually, but I'm alright.

Jul 8th

grizzlymays asked: I'm working my way up lol. Almost 200 followers or something like that. Oh well. It's no big deal to me.
It's a pretty good escape. I think I'm ready to be back home with my friends though. I just need friend time.

Glad to hear so! Still with that one guy? (I think his name is Ben....?)

Jul 8th

grizzlymays asked: I'm on tumblr everyday. I feel ~~tumblr famuzzzzz~~~~ lol not really.
I'm doing good! I'm actually in North Carolina on vacation right now. How have you been?!

Jul 8th

grizzlymays asked: I completely forgot you had a tumblr. I saw a post on my dash, and I went all, "WHOA. ASHLEY. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HER IN FOREVER. MUST SAY HI!"

Jul 8th

grizzlymays asked: I hope this isn't completely awkward or anything, but hi!

Jul 8th

Kait Payne.: Really though →

kaitmpayne: All of my life I’ve written as much as I could so that I wouldn’t ever forget things. When I was very young I used to write all the words I knew over and over again cat mom car rain cat mom mom mom the It is perhaps my greatest tragedy that I have never forgotten a single thing anyway…. Odd. This fits me to a ‘T’.

Jul 7th

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Jun 23rd

I feel like the very core of myself has a hard...

And I just push people away unknowingly. I don’t have to be so god damned independent. I’m allowed to have feelings; I’m allowed to depend on people. I wish I wasn’t so headstrong. I wish I would let people help me. I remember a time that I was so weak and unhappy it consumed everything I did. And now, if anyone witnesses that except for myself, it’s like I’m...

Jun 20th

Bucket list of wanted objects

An old, old home with lots of character A barn to go with that home that I can renovate into something neat A VW bus and/or old school camper (the silver ones from the 60s) - sooooooo retro A porch swing Lots of antiques to fill my antique home Typewriter Library in my house that smells like books More beautiful birdcages ..just dreaming.

Jun 19th

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